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  <title>The Inner-net</title>
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  <modified>2007-01-07T16:36:16Z</modified>
  <tagline>Imagine being fully alive, awake and engaged. Imagine utilizing body, mind and spirit in a rapturous three part harmony that sets feet tapping, hearts beating and souls soaring. Walking together from the self to the selfless, this is one pilgrimage to the heart of the infinite. [about the walk]</tagline>
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  <copyright>Copyright (c) 2007, Nipun Mehta</copyright>
  <entry>
    <title>Status of Blogging :)</title>
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    <modified>2007-01-07T16:36:16Z</modified>
    <issued>2007-01-07T08:36:16-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2007:/blog/1.1007</id>
    <created>2007-01-07T16:36:16Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain">While I take my time to mid-wife the birth of the gratitude blog, :) just a quick note to let you know that I&apos;ve been writing on the CharityFocus blog (like this Tigers Update) and kindness stories on the HelpOthers.org...</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>misc</dc:subject>
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      <![CDATA[<P>While I take my time to mid-wife the birth of the gratitude blog, :) just a quick note to let you know that I've been writing on the <a href="http://charityfocus.org/blog">CharityFocus blog</a> (like this <a href="http://www.charityfocus.org/blog/cf/arch/general/001312.html">Tigers Update</a>) and kindness stories on the <a href="http://helpothers.org/">HelpOthers.org</a> site (like this <a href="http://www.helpothers.org/story.php?sid=5294">$62.82 story</a>).

<P>Oh, and Guri's got a new <a href="http://gurimehta.fotix.net/">photo blog</a> ... where she hopes to post a new photo everyday.]]>
      
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  <entry>
    <title>Birth of Gratitude Blog</title>
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    <modified>2006-08-09T19:48:23Z</modified>
    <issued>2006-08-09T12:48:23-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2006:/blog/1.988</id>
    <created>2006-08-09T19:48:23Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain">Jean sent me an eCard with a sentence I had once written to her: So many times each day, I am in a state of extreme gratitude. Oddly enough, most of the time it has nothing to do with circumstances...</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>thoughts</dc:subject>
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      <![CDATA[<P>Jean sent me an <a href="http://ecards.charityfocus.org">eCard</a> with a sentence I had once written to her:

<div class="body-photo"><img src="http://charityfocus.org/pics/i/e/ecards/jean/5.jpg"></div>

<P>So many times each day, I am in a state of extreme gratitude.  Oddly enough, most of the time it has nothing to do with circumstances of the day; sometimes I'll just be sitting there in silence and there'll be a surge of energy coupled with incredible gratefulness.  Although my mind tends to attach that gratitude to something or another that's immediately relevant in my life, my hunch is that it's a natural spring that sprouts without a rhyme or a reason.

<P>A while back, I had a thought of writing a note to gratitude every night before I sleep … to honor the deep connections that I cherish.

<P>In our networked, information-heavy world, we are suffocated with lots of superficial connections – MySpace or LinkedIn, or it's an email from your co-worker's neighbor whom you met once or an interesting blogger that your sister has been reading for a year or an artist whose photos are up on Flickr.   Yes, your addressbook has a thousand email addresses but really, how many of those people would wake up at 1AM to help you out?  

<P>And it's not just people.  Our connection to ideas is also superficial.  We will watch 'Inconvenient Truth' and talk about sustainability but we'll still use plastic, not change the light bulbs in our house, and secretly admire SUV's.  We will donate to a homeless shelter or sponsor a well in a developing country, but we will ignore a homeless man on the street and indulge in long showers everyday.  We will read spiritual books and quote scriptures, but we can't get along with those closest to us and we never practice being still.

<P>Such paradoxes are a reality, for all of us, not because we don't believe in things but because we're confused about what to believe in.  Hedging, weighing in the opportunity cost, cashing in for the quick fix, we sink in the quicksand of information, mis-information, dis-information.

<P>And that's where gratitude comes in for me.  Gratitude creates that stillness that allows truth to arise, clears out the lens through which I look at the world, and gives me that extra umph needed to make my life my message.

<P>All to say, that from this point, I hope to write entries of gratitude on this blog.]]>
      
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  <entry>
    <title>Article in San Francisco Chronicle</title>
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    <modified>2006-06-26T14:24:59Z</modified>
    <issued>2006-06-26T07:24:59-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2006:/blog/1.986</id>
    <created>2006-06-26T14:24:59Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain">As I shuttle from a meditation retreat to a &quot;evolutionary role of philanthropy&quot; conference in Colorado to a youth conference in NY, life feels serenely eventful. :) Today, SF Chronicle did an interview with Guri and I. Unlike the usual...</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>events</dc:subject>
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      <![CDATA[<P>As I shuttle from a meditation retreat to a "evolutionary role of philanthropy" conference in Colorado to a <a href="http://www.yja.org/blog/2006/05/06/this-years-programming-rocks/">youth conference</a> in NY, life feels serenely eventful. :)

<P>Today, <a href="http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/g/a/2006/06/26/findrelig.DTL&hw=david+miller&sn=001&sc=1000">SF Chronicle</a> did an interview with Guri and I.  Unlike the usual media stories, this one feels quite real.
</P>]]>
      
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  <entry>
    <title>Chocolate Insanity</title>
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    <modified>2006-06-16T17:55:56Z</modified>
    <issued>2006-06-16T10:55:56-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2006:/blog/1.984</id>
    <created>2006-06-16T17:55:56Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain">A &quot;sweet&quot; story from HelpOthers.org: It was a routine trip. We, my wife and I, are walking back home from the grocery store when we spontaneously decide to walk into a coffee shop. As my wife orders a small cup...</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>stories</dc:subject>
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      <![CDATA[<P><I>A "sweet" story from <a href="http://helpothers.org/story.php?sid=574">HelpOthers.org</a>:</I>

<P>It was a routine trip. We, my wife and I, are walking back home from the grocery store when we spontaneously decide to walk into a coffee shop. As my wife orders a small cup of coffee at the counter, I huddle our grocery bags under our table and get ready to share some hot coffee on this unusually cold day.

<P><img src="http://helpothers.org/pix/news/misc/grateful.jpg" align=right border=1>Just then, my eyes catch glimpse of a young woman in her thirties escorting a rather frail Mexican woman into the shop. Maybe it was the gentleness of their encounter or a vague familiarity with the circumstances, but something about them grabs my full attention. I immediately feel an impulse to do something for them. Anything. Unfortunately, before I can gather my wits, they leave the coffee shop without ordering anything!

<P>When my wife returns, I tell her of my silent encounter. "But I missed the chance to do something for them," I say with the angst of a window shopper reading a "closed" sign on the front door.
</P>]]>
      <![CDATA[<P>Strangely enough, though, they come back into the same coffee shop five minutes later. Unbelievable! "This is my chance," I think out loud as my wife shares some creative possibilities. The two women order, take their table placard, and disappear out of our visual range.

<P>After quickly finishing up the coffee, we walk up to the counter and ask the smiling cashier -- "What is your most popular dessert?" Chocolate Insanity Cake it is. With a childlike glee, my wife makes an unusual order. "Can I buy a piece for the two women that were just here before us? But don't tell 'em it was from us. Just give 'em this card," she says while taking out a smile card.


<P>The cashier, a young girl in her early twenties, can't believe it. "Wow. Yes, of course." "Table number 38, wasn't it?" "Yeah, those two ladies that were just here." "Yeah, that's right."

<P>She peeks at the smile card just enough to read the "smile" in big font, and attracts the attention of her co-worker. "Do you guys do this all the time?" she asks, rather lost for words. "Not all the time. Just whenever the heart calls for it," I respond with a natural smile. And I make an offer they simply can't refuse -- "I think we might have an extra smile card or two. Would you like one?" "Oh yeah, heck ya. We'll do something kind too."

<P>And to think they hadn't even delivered the Chocolate Insanity Cake yet.

<P>We, my wife and I, are people of modest means. Tonight, we were planning on doing our once-in-a-while dinner at a restaurant. But walking out from that coffee shop, both of us stand upright with our brown grocery bags in tow and say, "Let's eat at home today."

<P>It's more filling to give a chocolate cake than it is to eat it.]]>
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  <entry>
    <title>Burning Questions</title>
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    <modified>2006-06-16T17:54:27Z</modified>
    <issued>2006-06-16T10:54:27-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2006:/blog/1.983</id>
    <created>2006-06-16T17:54:27Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain">I was invited to spend a week to 30 interesting folks to discuss the &quot;role of philanthropy&quot;. Everyone is asked to submit a bunch of &quot;burning questions&quot; and I penned down a few that have created some good conversations: Is...</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>thoughts</dc:subject>
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      <![CDATA[<P><img src="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/blog/ar/question0.jpg" width="200" height="294" border="0" align=right>I was invited to spend a week to 30 interesting folks to discuss the "role of philanthropy".  Everyone is asked to submit a bunch of
"burning questions" and I penned down a few that have created some good conversations:

    <UL>
    <LI>Is philanthropy creating more problems than it's solving?  To "help" is to see life as weak, to "fix" is to life as broken, but what happens when we see life as a whole?  Is it possible to serve without pre-conceived solutions in our head?
    <LI>What are the design flaws in man-made institutions that encourage fear, competition, and scarcity?  Upton Sinclair once said, "It is difficult to get a man to understand something when his salary depends upon his not understanding it."  How do we address the design flaw so deep into the game?
    <LI>Who has done more good for the world: Mother Teresa or Bill Gates?  After much analysis, Forbes magazine concluded it was Bill Gates.  How exactly do we measure the "good"?  Can we count what really counts?
    <LI>How do we shift from a transaction oriented society to a flow-based society?  If 15 still frames can create an animation, how many transactions does it take for real life to flow?  Divorcing technology isn't an option anymore; how can we steer it towards flow?
    <LI>In our current "attention" economy, eyeball time is money -- seconds of SuperBowl time, click-thrus on Google, placement in Time.  But can we go a step further and create an Intention Economy?  Instead of  marketers constantly interupting consumers to sell unwanted products, can we create a consumer-driven, demand-pull system based on communities of intention?
    <LI>How does the online world relate to the the offline world?  Are they diametrically opposed and can they be weaved together for positive social transformation?
    </UL>]]>
      
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  </entry>
  <entry>
    <title>Tigers Updates</title>
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    <modified>2006-06-16T17:53:02Z</modified>
    <issued>2006-06-16T10:53:02-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2006:/blog/1.982</id>
    <created>2006-06-16T17:53:02Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain">Every month that I&apos;m running CharityFocus, I write an internal newsletter called &apos;Tigers Update&apos;. From the April Tigers Update: Guri and I were to invited to a conference recently. It was quite fancy with many world-class speakers; at lunch, a...</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>letters</dc:subject>
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      <![CDATA[<P>Every month that I'm running CharityFocus, I write an internal newsletter called 'Tigers Update'.

<P>From the <a href="http://www.charityfocus.org/blog/cf/arch/general/001211.html">April Tigers Update</a>:
<BLOCKQUOTE><I>
Guri and I were to invited to a conference recently. It was quite fancy with many world-class speakers; at lunch, a gentleman on a wheelchair asks me, "You are a speaker? But you are so young. What are your credentials?" I don't have a graduate degree, no major awards, no high rollin' bank accounts, no books that are displayed in conference hallways. Yes, I did start an organization but you know, its annual budget is $7000 after seven years of operation! So that's exactly how I opened my talk -- "I'm just an ordinary guy, I have no original content, no letters postfixed to my name, no fancy accolades, nothing. But I stand here in front of you to dialogue with your presence."
<BR><BR>
The talk rocked for exactly the same reason that CharityFocus rocks -- we have no agenda. 
</I></BLOCKQUOTE>

<P>And from the latest <a href="http://www.charityfocus.org/blog/cf/arch/general/001264.html">May Tigers Update</a>:

<BLOCKQUOTE><I>
Last month, the CEO  of Google.org ($1.2 billion fund) replies to the weekly thought and asks for a paragraph describing CharityFocus. I opened with, "Three pillars of our guiding principles are: (a) we are all volunteers, (b) we don't fundraise, (c) we believe in doing small things." He tells me later on that he needed to explain CharityFocus to the Google.org Board! Why? "Just because," he says with a wry smile. :)
<BR><BR>
Just because. That could be the new CharityFocus slogan. No ifs, ands, buts, whys. Just because.
</I></BLOCKQUOTE>]]>
      
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  <entry>
    <title>The Google Story</title>
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    <modified>2006-06-16T17:49:07Z</modified>
    <issued>2006-06-16T10:49:07-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2006:/blog/1.981</id>
    <created>2006-06-16T17:49:07Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain">Jayeshbhai recently gave me &apos;The Google Story&apos; book; although the Google Guys are in the commerical context, they are trying to &quot;change the world&quot;. Below are some intriguing factoids about Google....</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>books</dc:subject>
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      <![CDATA[<P><a
href="http://www.charityfocus.org/insp/heroes.php?pg=jayesh">Jayeshbhai</a>
recently gave me '<a
href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/055380457X/ref=ase_satisfaction1-20/002-9705998-0864828?s=books&v=glance&n=283155&tagActionCode=satisfaction1-20">The
Google Story</a>' book; although the Google Guys are in the commerical context, they are trying to "change the world".  Below are some intriguing factoids about Google.</P>]]>
      <![CDATA[<UL>

<LI><B>Google is pushing bounds.</B> Outside of searching billions of web documents, 1.2 billion images, taxis, stock quotes, and weather maps, they're also showing surface of earth and the moon, compiling a genetic and biological database using the vast power of its search engines so you can "Google your Genes"; scanning millions of books without traditional regard for copyright laws; tracing online searches to individual Internet users and storing them indefinitely; demanding cell phone numbers in exchange for Gmail accounts as it begins to build the first global cell phone directory; saving Gmails forever on its own servers; GoogleNet's anticipated free wireless access promises to disrupt the existing cable and media companies. 

<LI>New employees at Google are Nooglers, anyone else is a Googler. Correct spelling for Google is actually "Googol" but Google is now a dictionary word and has moved from being a noun to a verb! The playful decorations of their logo are "Google Doodles." Each Googler's Gmail quota is one Terabyte. :) 
<LI>Charlie was employee number 56, chef at Google. He was so loved that the cafeteria was named '<B>Charlie's Place</B>'. All employees get three free, organic meals on campus. Lunch menu isn't announced till 10 minutes before noon. For their post-IPO party, they celebrated with Ben and Jerry's ice-cream for everyone! 
<LI><B>Googleplex</B> has free on-site medical and dental care, haircuts, washer and dryers, and daily charter buses from SF to Silicon Valley that run on bio-diesel. Of course, volleyballs, foosballs, puzzles, games, rollerblading, colorful kitchens stocks with free natural juices and organic snacks, bowls of M&M's, lava lamps, vibrating massage chairs. As if that's not enough, free masseuse, extravagant touch-pad controlled toilets with six levels of heat for the seat, culture to encourage Googlers to bring their dogs to work. 
<LI>Larry Page's brother was the founder of eGroups, which was bought by Yahoo. Their Dad was a Grateful Dead fan. Larry and Sergey celebrated their IPO by going to '<a href="http://www.burningman.com">Burning Man</a>' festival that they are regulars at. 
<LI>Google gives <B>20% time</B> to employees for "personal" projects. That's not really innovative, though; colleges do that with professors. And really any Silicon Valley engineer can tell you what 20% free time means in face of deadlines, release dates, and customer escalations. But what's interesting is that Google makes room for innovation to come from the bottom up. Google News, Orkut, Froogle, Gmail are some of the many examples. They also have a "Founders' Award", multimillion stock awards presented regularly to small teams that develop the best new ideas. Things like that keep brilliant innovators within the Googleplex. 
<LI>In August 2005, Google said it'll sell 14,159,265 additional shares. Those were the first eight digits after the decimal point in pi. :) A year earlier, they raised $2,718,261,828 in the IPO -- a mathematical figure known as "e". 
<LI>Despite being a billionaire at 31, Larry's mother wants him to return to Stanford to complete his PhD thesis. 

<LI>Google, in its very early days, was a project named 'BackRub'. :) 
<LI>Google went out to raise money primarily because they ran out of money to buy computers. <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andy_Bechtolsheim">Andy Bechtolsheim</a> gave a $100,000 on a hand-shake and Larry and Sergey headed to Fry's Electronics to buy some cheap computer parts. :) 
<LI>Despite being VC funded, Larry and Sergey never gave up control. Their first big money was $25 million, $12.5 million from Kliener Perkins and another $12.5 Sequoi Capital (probably first time that top two VC firms invest in the same company) and the "Google Kids" kept full control. They asked 'em to hire a CEO and it took 'em 16 months before they ok'd Eric Schmidt. 
<LI>During IPO time, they again broke all kind of rules. SEC told them to delete comments like "a great service to the world", "to do things that matter", "greater positive impact in the world", "don't be evil", "making the world a better place". They also openly wrote that 1% of their company will go to their foundation, and that they will sacrifice short-term profit for long-term strategies, and when SEC said, "please refer to the persons by their full names or by their last names", Larry and Sergey refused and keep their first names. Their IPO was auctioned, so instead of Wall Streeters deciding who get the share (they generally keep 7%, $140 million in this case), it would be a populist method of distributing the shares. And of course, during "quiet period", Playboy ran an interview with them (they then included that article as an appendix to the SEC filing). 
<LI><a href="http://www.google.org">Google.org</a>, the foundation that Larry and Sergey hope will "eclipse the work of Google.com", is now valued at $1.2 billion dollars. 
<LI>Google makes all its money from advertising (largely) text-ads. Their success has been attributed to its AdSense programs; when they announced the program that would share its profit from each click to the originator of that click, Sergey said, "It was our way of saying thank you." At that time, no one knew it would bring Google billions or that individuals like <a href="http://www.jensense.com/archives/2005/08/interview_with.html">Jason Calacanis</a> could make a million bucks off it. 
<LI>Gmail was launched on April 1st. With their 1 Gig of storage per email, compared to 4 megs by Yahoo and 2 megs by Hotmail at the time. Like everything else, they spent zero dollars on marketing the product. 
<LI>Friends say that Google Guys didn.t do anything for the money. Big time VC's say that Google Guys always try to "do the right thing" (ethically speaking). Google has very rarely advertised any of its products or services; loyal users and word of mouth have carried them all the way. Now, to announce anything, all they do it post it on their spartan homepage. 
<LI>CEO of AOL, Jon Miller says, "Google is not anti-anybody. Most companies need a business enemy, and that is how they motivate themselves. Brin and Page, on the other hand, "are motivated by their mission. Clearly, they think differently and are driven by their vision and business goals." 
<LI>When appointing titles, Larry and Sergey flipped a coin to see who would be CEO and who would be President. They still share the same office. :) 

<LI>Sergey Brin says Google, at the age of seven, just finished first grade. :) 
<LI>Valued at $110 billion, more than the combined value of Disney, Ford, General Motors, Amazon.com and the media companies that own the New York Times, the Wall Street Journal and The Washington Post. 
<LI>At the end of the day, Google still knows a lot more about you than you know about Google. :) 

</UL>]]>
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  <entry>
    <title>Sunflower and a Frog</title>
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    <modified>2006-06-16T17:46:53Z</modified>
    <issued>2006-06-16T10:46:53-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2006:/blog/1.980</id>
    <created>2006-06-16T17:46:53Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain">He took it out from around his neck and leaned down a bit, his eyes looking straight into mine. &quot;Would you mind?&quot; he asks. Looking at him through his eye glasses, I smile and say, &quot;Of course not, Lee. It...</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>stories</dc:subject>
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      <![CDATA[<P><IMG SRC="http://tow.charityfocus.org/pics/rand/tow2.jpg" ALIGN=right  border=1 HSPACE=4>He took it out from around his neck and leaned down a bit, his eyes looking straight into mine. "Would you mind?" he asks. Looking at him through his eye glasses, I smile and say, "Of course not, Lee. It would be an honor." And with that, I was garlanded -- probably for the first time in my life -- with a simple necklace.


<P>Lee is the epitome of a happy-go-lucky guy. He used to be a trucker, I think. If there were one word to describe him, it would be happy. Or joyous. And what a pure heart. In one of those fits of unadulterated compassion, he just felt like giving me something. So he takes off his own necklace and offers it to me.
</P>
]]>
      <![CDATA[<P>It was far from an ordinary necklace. In a small town of Oregon, Lee met a Japanese-American fellow selling small hand-made, glass items. While conversing with him, he realized that the Japense-American guy was an engineer. "Then, why are you blowing glass?" Lee asked him. "Well, my father is dying of Leukemia and there is no one to take care of him, so I gave up my career and moved here. And in this small town, there are no engineering jobs, so I learned how to blow glass." Touched by his sincerity, Lee picked up a round glass piece with a sunflower embeded inside and a fun, frog-like caricature transplanted on the front. Attached to a blueish-green string, this piece stayed around Lee's neck until our little encounter.

<P>While we were talking, I told him a story of how I was once fed by a homeless man. "You see, Lee, I have this strange suspicion that no one is really poor. If you have kindness in your heart, if you offer whatever you have, you have won the world," I said. Something about the way that statement came out -- Lee just gave me the most precious thing he had in that moment. Just like that.

<P>Generally, you might feel odd receiving a precious gift like that but this just felt natural. Both of us were elated with our encounter.

<P>Lee is quite a guy. He'll buy basketballs for inner-city kids, he'll write cards to cheer people up, he'll give his neighbors honey from the bees that he nurtures in his basement (Lee loves bees!). He'll even go stay with the homeless. One time, when he was living in a ghetto for some time, someone stole his laundry basket at a local laundromat. So he goes and buys another one, but when that gets stolen too, he went out and bought a dozen of them and would leave one in the laundromat everyday! After about a week, the baskets stopped getting stolen, people loosened their fears about guarding their laundry basket, and that little corner of the world was restored with trust.

<P>That's the kind of guy Lee is. Unassuming, happy, giving, creative, and pure-hearted. When he garlands me with a necklace, it isn't a necklace anymore. It's a blessing.

<P>Thank you, Lee!]]>
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  </entry>
  <entry>
    <title>Organic Organizational Growth</title>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/blog/ar/thoughts/000979.html" />
    <modified>2006-06-16T17:45:55Z</modified>
    <issued>2006-06-16T10:45:55-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2006:/blog/1.979</id>
    <created>2006-06-16T17:45:55Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain">[One of the organizations I volunteer for was recently looking for leadership. Lot of people felt that the organization needed to spend more money to grow more, attract more talent, and work wonders in the world. I felt a little...</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>thoughts</dc:subject>
    <content type="text/html" mode="escaped" xml:lang="en" xml:base="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/blog/">
      <![CDATA[<P><I>[One of the organizations I volunteer for was recently looking for leadership.  Lot of people felt that the organization needed to spend more money to grow more, attract more talent, and work wonders in the world.  I felt a little differently and wrote the following note about growth.]</I>

<P>Growth has to be natural.  You can't look to an apple tree and say, "Here's an extra bag of fertilizer and I'm expecting 1000 new apples this season."  When we project our mental impressions onto our organizations, we interfere with natural conditions and "externalize" the costs to someone else in the world.  In recent years, we've seen this problem climax in the corporate world.  But this isn't just about global warming or recycling: it's also about the subtler costs of anger, greed, jealousy, mistrust, insecurity, and dissatisfaction in our very own hearts.

<P>The skillful approach, I believe, is to focus not merely on the tangible outcomes but on the process of cultivating the soil and watering the plants and patiently finding joy in the small things.  No matter how many professional doctors you hire, a mother will take nine months to deliver her child.  You can't rush it.  Similarly, you can't determine your growth rate by how much you pay the ED, how many people are on your development staff, or how many unrestricted checks you get.  If we don't have active board participation, or if we have high staff turnover, or if all of us aren't fully aligned with common values, we will struggle.  And that's OK -- what the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly.  We have to be careful about the pain-killer effect of transient resources (like money) which often desensitize us to the pain we ought to feel.

<P>The strength of an organization lies in the commitment of its constituents to its guiding principles and vision.  If we are to have any growth, it has to be in proportion to -- and in line with -- that organizational strength.</P>

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      <![CDATA[<P>Chaos Theory's Butterfly Effect tells us that a butterfly flapping its wings in Texas can create a tornado in Brazil.  And what happens in our offices and board meetings reaches our partners and beneficiaries in far deeper ways than the aid money.  This is why Gandhi asserted that, "You must BE the change you wish to see in the world."

<P>My vision for any holistic organization would be one that anchors itself in the spirit of service and compassion, one where each of its constituents are rooted in being that change, and one where there is humility and openness for all that our conscious awareness can't grasp.

<P>When Gandhi was disappointed with the masses, he fasted.  When Martin Luther King, Jr. wanted to have a gun for his family's protection, he prayed his heart out. When Dalai Lama cried of anguish because of the plight of the Tibetans, he vowed to love his enemies.  Cesar Chavez, Chief Seattle, and Mother Teresa all did the same thing.  And this isn't just about past legends: when Dr. V wanted to start an eye hospital, he mortgaged his own house and asked his siblings to sell their jewelry!

<P>More compensation, more slick-like-a-corporation practices, and more
expensive recruiting firms will not attract the next leader we want.
Merely looking at our balance sheets isn't enough to sow seeds of growth;
we must learn to shoulder the pain of our struggles.

<P>Do we have anyone who will fast for one meal a day until we find
the next leader, do we have anyone who will contribute an act of deliberate
kindness everyday until we reach our next fundraising goal, do we
have anyone who will pray or meditate an extra hour everyday
until staff turnover returns to normal?  Or have we lost faith in the
interconnected ways of the world? And do we just want to coast off of
our past merits until they run dry? Are we too sophisticated for such
simple sacrifices that have been the hallmark of service legends?

<P>I don't know.  But I trust We do.

<P>Mother Teresa once said, "A saint is someone who takes what
is given, and gives what is taken."  I hope we find our roots in
that saintliness.


<P>In service and stillness, :)

<P>Nipun]]>
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  </entry>
  <entry>
    <title>Miles of Smiles</title>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/blog/ar/events/000978.html" />
    <modified>2006-06-16T17:44:33Z</modified>
    <issued>2006-06-16T10:44:33-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2006:/blog/1.978</id>
    <created>2006-06-16T17:44:33Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain">&quot;Right on. This is my kind of protest,&quot; he says while going past me. I hadn&apos;t thought of it way before. But perhaps it is a protest for lack of smiles in the world. About 15 of us gathered earlier...</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>events</dc:subject>
    <content type="text/html" mode="escaped" xml:lang="en" xml:base="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/blog/">
      <![CDATA[<P>"Right on.  This is my kind of protest," he says while going past me.  I hadn't thought of it way before.  But perhaps it is a protest for lack of smiles in the world.

<P><img src="http://helpothers.org/docs/events/apr06/spare-a-smile.jpg" border=1 align=right>About 15 of us gathered earlier today to create poster boards that we would proudly hold up on busy street intersections of San Francisco.  The posters would say simple things like "smile" or "smile anyways" or "spare a smile?" or "smile, it's free".  We weren't doing this as a part of any organization but rather as friends and well-meaning citizens of the world.

<P>After our morning creative sessions, we split up into teams of four and spread over various intersections on San Francisco's Van Ness Road.  My team was at the Lombard intersection, one of the busiest.

<P>For the first couple minutes, there's always that awkward question mark on your face -- "I am making a fool of myself?"  But then, you realize that this is not about you.  It's about delivering an unexpected smile on someone's face and the best way to do that is with a big fat smile on your own face.  So, you look to your other friends at the four intersections, light up your face, yell "smile" at the car stopped at the intersection.
</P>

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      <![CDATA[<P>Hundreds of cars pass by.  Truck drivers honk their loud horns, drivers point their fingers to the smile on their faces, mothers look at their kids who are quick to show their teeth, the tourists bust out their cameras for a quick photo-op at the red light, a family in awe remarks, "You mean, you're just doing this for no reason?", the bus passengers wave as if we're best friends, a twenty-something party crew pumps their fists in the air and yell "yeaaahhh" in unison, and old couple gives a satisfied look as if they're no longer worried about the future generation.

<P>Time flies.  Instead of merely holding up your sign, your feet start tapping to the music you can't hear, your poster starts swaying to the rhythm of the wind, and a very real part of you is leaping out to passerbys on the streets.  No one feels like a stranger.  And without absolutely any tangible reason, you are just plain happy.  

<P>Thich Nhat Hanh once said, "Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile and sometimes your smile is the source of your joy."   Today, my smile is the source of my joy.  No doubt.

<P>Of course, the occasional driver will mock your sign, avoid eye contact, fake a smile, or look at your Spanish poster with a weary eye.  But just then, another driver will get out of his sunroofs, from many rows of car behind the red light, to yell a congratulatory remark in support ... only to start a symphony of car horns at an unexpected rally for smiles on Van-ness and Lombard.

<P>Being on the street like that, you start noticing all kinds of little things.  You see that fancier the car, fancier their distractions; either they're busy checking their hair or putting on make-up or talking on the cell phone or just dazed in a sea of thoughts.  But it'll be those beat-up Chevrolets with an old grandpa that will reach home and know how bright the sun was that morning and how old those kids were on the streets flashing unexpected sign of smiles.  It'll be those humble drivers of the garbage trucks that look to you, honk and say, "Right on!"

<P>Half way through, two unassuming pedestrians want to join us.  One of them is a African American 12-year-old, with slightly disfigured mouth, named Shaw and another one is a skinny American guy named Mike.  They're on spring break and are dying to tell people to smile.  Kids, you see, have no qualms about their image.  Almost immediately, they start flashing their poster, yelling "smile" on the top of their lungs and handing out flowers on the streets through open windows.  Practically no one can refuse an invitation to smile from two super-animated kids who just kinda showed up out of nowhere.

<P>When it's time to leave, all six of us huddle up but conclude, "Alright, five more minutes."  We let it loose.  One person is waving, the two kids are flashing the sign, another twenty-five year old girl is showing off her Spanish banner, and all of us are practically doing our dance of joy.  Seeing the excitement, cars are honking their horns, people are responding to our energy with their own energy.  Cops pass us with a smile -- they've seen this going on at so many intersections today!  It is a party.

<P>None of us want to stop, but we try to return to our maturity and head back so we can all share stories with other group members.  Just then, the two kids -- Mike and Shaw -- innocently ask us, "Can we keep two of the posters?"  "Why, sure.  Here you go."  We thought that perhaps they were just going to take them home.


<P>But we were wrong.  In a distance, we heard the unrelenting voices of those two kids on Van Ness and Lombard -- "Sssssmmmmile, Smmmiiiiiiile."  We were done, but the kids are still going.

<P>Miles of Smiles, indeed.]]>
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  </entry>
  <entry>
    <title>Cause of Poverty: Greed or Ignorance?</title>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/blog/ar/thoughts/000977.html" />
    <modified>2006-06-16T17:43:54Z</modified>
    <issued>2006-06-16T10:43:54-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2006:/blog/1.977</id>
    <created>2006-06-16T17:43:54Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain">One of my friends recently asked me: What do you think is more responsible for poverty, greed or ignorance? And no cheating and saying greed is a form of ignorance. :) If the question is, what causes poverty, we first...</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>thoughts</dc:subject>
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      <![CDATA[<P>One of my friends recently asked me:

<BLOCKQUOTE><I>
    What do you think is more responsible for poverty, greed or
    ignorance?  And no cheating and saying greed is a form of
    ignorance. :)
</I></BLOCKQUOTE>

<P>If the question is, what causes poverty, we first have to start by defining what poverty actually is. Broadly speaking, there's material poverty, emotional poverty, and spiritual poverty. </P>

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      <![CDATA[<P>Material poverty: Per Maslow's hierarchy of needs, most people work with the assumption that without a certain threshold of material prosperity, rest of the questions are immaterial. So, let's consider hunger. As Amartya Sen's Nobel work shows, famines are overtly related to the governance; people go hungry not because of lack of food but because of lack of distribution mechanisms. In the West, you have the flip issue: people are obese, not because of access to food but because of policy that makes resources like corn cheaply accessible which in turn, allows for Double Big Macs to be 99 cents and Double Big Gulps to be 79 cents. Likewise, the case can be made for other material quality-of-life metrics. So, I would say that material poverty is a result of policy based on greed (not just for money, but for power/security). 

<P>Emotional poverty: Everyone realizes the importance of positive emotions in their life, although it's hard to quantify it. Something like 80% of all donations in the US come from small amounts (not Bill Gates!) given on impulse, women vote for Clinton because he "looks" trustworthy; anti-depressants are a mega billion industry because people don't "feel" good. Feeling good is important to people, yet it's shocking that so little of humanity's "research" is curing this rampant dis-ease. I think it's because we haven't figured out the root cause of emotional poverty -- isolation. Before making decisions, Native Americans would traditionally assess how their decision would affect the seventh generation down the road; now-a-days, we aren't even worried about our how our late-night music will affect our neighbors. Losing the link of inter-connection with people, nature and all life is, I would say, the main culprit behind emotional poverty. 

<P>Spiritual poverty: History shows that mankind makes dumb -- ie. Self-destructive -- decisions. Again and again. Why? Because we don't see the consequences of our actions. We all know that smoking is bad for us and happy thoughts are good for us, but that doesn't stop the smokers or the anger tantrums. If people got punished -- not in heaven or hell but here and now -- for each thought of anger, or ego, or ill-will, we would never have any wars, disparity between rich and poor would cease, and we would respect nature. So, then, how do we experience the results of our ignorance, how do we deepen our awareness so we can reduce the gap between the cause and effect, how do we listen to the truth of each moment so we function in harmony with that nature? These are fundamentally spiritual questions. Not having experiential answers to these questions is spiritual poverty. And it is caused by, I would say, ignorance. 

<P>Back to our original question -- what is responsible for poverty? Material poverty is created by greed-based policies, emotional poverty is caused by man-made machinery (institutions, technology, drugs, etc.) that isolate us from life, and spiritual poverty is due to ignorance of the consequences to our actions. Furthermore, I think that spiritual poverty is the subtlest and hence the most potent; i.e. solving that question will naturally solve the others.

<P>Practically speaking, how do you become-the-change if you want to eradicate poverty? Make decisions based on love instead of fear, build systems and technologies that connect us with all forms of life instead of isolating us, and act consciously to deepen our awareness of every interaction we have.

<P>I spent yesterday afternoon standing at the intersection of Van-Ness and Lombard, holding up a sign saying, "Spare a Smile?" I'm hoping that eradicated at least some poverty in the world. :)
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  </entry>
  <entry>
    <title>Wear Smiles!</title>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/blog/ar/stories/000976.html" />
    <modified>2006-06-16T17:42:43Z</modified>
    <issued>2006-06-16T10:42:43-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2006:/blog/1.976</id>
    <created>2006-06-16T17:42:43Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain">In the middle of lunch, we get a phone call. &quot;Sir, I&apos;ve got a special package for you.&quot; &quot;Special package? Um, ok, I&apos;ll come down to get it.&quot; &quot;This is for you,&quot; the slim, twenty-something guy says with a mischevious...</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>stories</dc:subject>
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      <![CDATA[<P>In the middle of lunch, we get a phone call. "Sir, I've got a special package for you." "Special package? Um, ok, I'll come down to get it."

<P>"This is for you," the slim, twenty-something guy says with a mischevious smile. "Who is it from?" "It's from an anonymous friend." Actually, in all my excitement I couldn't tell if he said "friend" or "friends" but it didn't matter. With radiant joy for having kind friends, I took a peek inside the box. "Thank you." The kid rushes off as if his 007 mission is accomplished.

<P><img src="http://static.flickr.com/23/33925461_f3dc02c672_m.jpg" align=right border=1>Inside the box -- guess what? T-shirts. Lots of them, I think about 25-30 of them. Each t-shirt had the same kind of "smile" written on it, the way each smile card has, and a happy face.

<P>It was awesome. So awesome that my mind started racing about who could've pulled off the incredible tag.

<P>With a big brown box in hand, I waited for the elevator to come down.</P>
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      <![CDATA[<P>Just then, a man on a wheelchair blasts in from the other door. A heavy set, Filipino guy with a bandana on his head; he seemed a little aggressive as if he was in the middle of a bad day. As I looked down toward his wheelchair, while still cradling the large box of t-shirts, he asks, "Hey, how are you doing?" The elevator shows up. Both of us jump in, along with a third person, and continue the conversation.


<P>"Good," I replied, still wondering about the t-shirt culprit. "Creating some trouble?" the man in the wheelchair asks. It was an awkward greeting, but I just played it off-- "Nah, just trying to bring some smiles in the world." There was a moment of awkward silence and then I pulled out a t-shirt from the box -- "See this? Someone just dropped it off anonymously. It says 'smile.' See?" He couldn't help but smile. :)

<P>Ding. Second floor. As my wheelchair friend is about to leave, I spontaneously ask: "Hey, can I give you one?" For a second, he is a little flustered. A gift from someone he had known for exactly two floors? "Sure, but that's not my size," he says while recalling the sample medium sized t-shirt I just saw.

<P>"Well, you know what, I think there might be other sizes in here too," I mumble while holding the elevator door with one hand and rummaging through the blue cotton tees with my other hand. "Yeah, ok, there's medium. Ummmmm, oh yeah, there's a large too. Oh, and I see extra-large I think."

<P>"So do you work a lot with kids?" he asks. "Well, not professionally. But I myself feel like a kid most of the time, so I can relate," I say with a smile while still hunting down a large-size for my new friend.

<P>"No, you know what? Can you give me the medium? I know just the right person who I can give this to." "Oh, really, you mean paying-it-forward? Rock on." I hand him a medium shirt.

<P>By this time, the man on the wheelchair is smiling big. He wasn't wearing his shirt, but he was surely wearing the "smile".

<P>And I suppose that is exactly the point. Wear smiles.

<P>I rush into our apartment and tell my wife, "Wait till you see this." Just like that, our lunch conversation becomes a "who done it?" investigation with heartfelt joy. We start throwing out names, we decode (ok, Google :)) the label on the box, we look up our caller-id history to trace some usual suspects. After twenty minutes of looking for clues and coming up with our hot-list, we arrive at the second question with a child-like glee: "oh-mi-god, what are we going to do with these tees? We gotta think of something really cool."

<P>Wear smiles. That's what I think of when I see that box of blue smile t-shirts, when I remember my wheelchair friend in the elevator and when I think of the kindness warriors that went through the trouble to make our day in such an incredible way.

<P>Thank you, to whoever you are!]]>
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  </entry>
  <entry>
    <title>Will I Blog Again?</title>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/blog/ar/pilgrimpost/000974.html" />
    <modified>2006-02-17T14:08:13Z</modified>
    <issued>2006-02-17T06:08:13-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2006:/blog/1.974</id>
    <created>2006-02-17T14:08:13Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain">Yes, I will blog again. And so will Guri. When you stay on the edge of your insecurity for a while, life&apos;s interconnectedness becomes apparent in mysterious ways. During our walk, many of you wrote wonderful emails of support, questions...</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>pilgrim-post</dc:subject>
    <content type="text/html" mode="escaped" xml:lang="en" xml:base="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/blog/">
      <![CDATA[<P>Yes, I will blog again.  And so will <a href="http://ajourneytoindia.blogspot.com">Guri</a>.

<P>When you stay on the edge of your insecurity for a while, life's  interconnectedness becomes apparent in mysterious ways.  During our walk, many of you wrote wonderful emails of support, questions and comments; but in truth, they were all blessings uniting our sacred journeys in subtle ways.  To honor that connection, I will post again on this blog only after responding to each of those emails personally.

<P>In the interim, last year's blog entries are now also <a href="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/blog/parchives.html">listed chronologically</a>.  To get an email update when this blog is updated, enter your email address below:
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<P>Oh, and I'm also printing a very crude :) hard-copy of all our blog entries and <a href="http://www.ijourney.org">iJourney</a> profiles.  If you'd like a copy, <a href="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/update.html">drop me a note</a> with your shipping address.]]>
      
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  <entry>
    <title>Back to the Bayarea</title>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/blog/ar/pilgrimpost/000973.html" />
    <modified>2005-12-20T14:49:52Z</modified>
    <issued>2005-12-20T06:49:52-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2005:/blog/1.973</id>
    <created>2005-12-20T14:49:52Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain"> Guri and I will be back in the Bay-Area on Dec 21st. Wednesdays. --&gt; Thank you for a phenomenal year. We couldn&apos;t have done it without your blessings and good wishes....</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>pilgrim-post</dc:subject>
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<P>Guri and I will be back in the Bay-Area on Dec 21st.
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Don't know what life holds for us, but you know where
we'll be on <a href="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/med">Wednesdays</a>.
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<P>Thank you for a phenomenal year.  We couldn't have done it
without your blessings and good wishes.
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    </content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <title>A Full Moon View</title>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/blog/ar/pilgrimpost/000972.html" />
    <modified>2005-12-20T14:27:39Z</modified>
    <issued>2005-12-20T06:27:39-08:00</issued>
    <id>tag:nipun.charityfocus.org,2005:/blog/1.972</id>
    <created>2005-12-20T14:27:39Z</created>
    <summary type="text/plain"> &quot;Hello, CK?&quot; &quot;Speaking. Where are you guys? I&apos;ve been waiting. All your arrangements are made.&quot; &quot;CK, we have a slight change of plans.&quot; &quot;What&apos;s that?&quot; &quot;We&apos;re gonna sleep out on the streets tonight.&quot; A stunned silence. &quot;Hello, CK?&quot; &quot;Yes,&quot;...</summary>
    <author>
      <name>Nipun Mehta</name>
      <url>http://nipun.charityfocus.org</url>
      <email>nipun@charityfocus.org</email>
    </author>
    <dc:subject>pilgrim-post</dc:subject>
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      <![CDATA[
<P>"Hello, CK?"  "Speaking.  Where are you guys?  I've been waiting.  All your arrangements are made."  "CK, we have a slight change of plans."  "What's that?"  "We're gonna sleep out on the streets tonight."

<P>A stunned silence.

<P>"Hello, CK?"  "Yes," he replies as if he's never heard anything this crazy.  He had preponed his flight from Thailand to make it in time to receive us, but now this.  "What do you mean?" he asks.

<P>"Well, these guys are saying that they want to know what it feels like to be cold on the streets, before they start putting blankets on cold shoulders.  They really want to sleep out there," I explain.

<P>"In this weather?  You'll freeze," CK exclaims before sharing the 7 degree Celsius forecast.  "And what about the mosquitoes?  Come on, don't be silly.  Just come directly here.  I have made full arrangements.  You won't have to worry about a thing."  After a few minutes of five-star hospitality reviews and a few more are-you-sure phone calls, CK has no choice but to accept our plans.

<P>Eight of us are on the road.  It's the <a href="http://nipun.charityfocus.org/blog/ar/pilgrimpost/000971.html">compassion gang</a>, taking off on a trip to reload their ammunition -- blankets for the shivering, clothes for the naked, toys for the young ones, shoes for the bare-footed, you name it.  A truck load full of things, to give to people anonymously.

<P>Being the eldest of the gang, I am responsible for making mature decisions.  Well, well. :)

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<P>On the way here, we were all sharing life stories of each other in the context of service.  PN tells us about the faux-scolding he'd get from his mom because he had a bad habit of giving everything away, VJ shares a story of seeing his Dad refuse a 5 lakh rupee cash bribe and how that experience impacts so many of his decisions right now, UP elaborates a story of his most powerful dance performance when "every single person in the hall, including myself" cried.  One after another, stories keep flowing through our four hour car ride until at one point, we couldn't hold back the inspiration.

<P>We want to "take it up to the next level" and even right Now isn't soon enough.

<P>"How shall we do this?" I ask the group.  We decide to park the car, spilt up into teams of two and head out in four different directions.  Our plan is to go out with whatever clothes we have on, and figure out how to sleep outside -- if we find shelter, good; if we sleep outside, good; if we can't sleep, good.  It's all good, so long as we attempt to feel the suffering we are hoping to eradicate from the world.

<P>"Are you sure you want to do this?" I repeat the question at least five times being fully aware of the dangers of being hurt, getting sick, etc. etc.  Everyone emphatically affirms.  "We're just afraid of Guri-didi will say," they joke.

<P>ST puts on three layers of jackets as we get out, BK decides to stay in the car, and rest of us head out with what we have on.  VJ takes off his jean-jacket and stick to his only t-shirt idea that he had thunk up earlier.

<P>I walk out in my jeans and <I>Kurta</I>.  And it's freezing.

<P>As we head out in our assigned direction, I say in an elderly tone, "Whatever your experience, just remember why exactly you're doing this.  Don't forget, otherwise it'll just remain an adventure for you."  

<P>I'm paired up with UP.  After stumbling around, we finally land up in a deserted factory area.  We check out a few old trucks, in which we can park ourselves but UP rightly says, "This is iron.  We will become icicles by the morning."  We keep walking.

<P>"I've never done anything like this in my life," UP tells me as he's getting a little nervous about spending the night in this weather.  "Maybe we should just stay up the whole night?" he proposes.

<P>"No, no," I point to an old wooden bench.  "Check out this bench, just sleep here."  There was only room for one, so I tell UP to sleep there as I head to a nearby sand pit.  UP says, "No, no.  I'm tough.  I'm going to sleep wherever you sleep."

<P>Right as we're walking up there, a young security guard approaches us with full-on hostility.  Within the next hour, he is sitting with us sharing his life story -- Ashvin is an 18 year old who works about 22 hours of the day (10 hours in the night shift, where he is a security guard and also sleeps), 7 days a week, without getting any monetary compensation.  "My uncle took care of me since my Dad died on a train when I was 1.  He promises to get me married, so I just work for him."

<P>Two dogs approach Ashvin.  Ashvin picks up a black cloth bag and takes out four 'rotlis' (bread) to feed them with lots of love.  It's such a simple act that boldly communicates his spirit of service -- a guy who doesn't get paid, has four rotlis for a dog.  "Yeah, I do this everyday.  When I quit my last job, this dog there also quit that job.  He followed me here.  See, there he is," Ashvin points out to a barking dog in the dark, natureful area.

<P>UP and I are trying to catch some zzz's, as Ashvin is squatting next to us, talking about life.  It's past midnight, the full moon is shining brightly on top of our eyes and UP is taking a count of almost a dozen shooting stars he's spotted.

<P>Our sandals serve as our pillows, while our bare feet freeze.  UP sneaks his feet into his long pants and both of us are locked in our sleeping positions.  Ashvin is still sitting there, sporadically striking up conversation threads.  By now, he's really comfortable with us.

<P>Just then, he gets up to go somewhere and comes back with two raggedy, torn pieces of cloth.  "Hey guys, keep this.  It'll keep you warm," Ashvin tells us.  "Ah, there is a God!" UP exclaims. :)  One of the rags is short and the other one is tall; I give the long one to UP and I cover my feet with the other one.

<P>Another twenty minutes, and we are freezing even more.

<P>Ashvin gets up to sleep on his bench.  Oddly enough, there is part of us that is grateful for this experience.  We came with nothing, ready to freeze, and a random stranger provided us warmth.  All those people who say -- "Oh, I don't give food to the hungry, because I believe in teaching people how to cook" -- well, they should go sleep on the streets once.  It feels like a gift from heaven to receive an unasked-for blanket, even if it is a little smelly and has lots of holes in it.

<P>I tell UP, looking up at the moon: "It's not good enough to just experience this.  You must take resolve to give up one of your bad habits."  For a couple minutes, he stares up at the sky in silence.  UP himself admits to being a "very angry young man" and gets into many fights, over the smallest things.  "What do you think?" I remind him.  "Nipunbhai, I've decided something today with full moon as our witness.  Whenever I do it, I will tell you what it was."

<P>Behind us are some train tracks, behind which is a lake.  We can feel the chilly wind.  I tell UP, "Man, it sure would be nice to have another blanket.  But you know, it's a spiritual principle -- you don't ask for things.  Your job is to simply accept whatever comes."

<P>Almost as if it was planned, Ashvin returns with a queen sized blanket and says, "Hey guys, I just found this too."  We are absolutely speechless!

<P>Both of us share the big blanket and go to sleep in the silent warmth of kindness that has sustained us for the night.

<P>It's a difficult night.  But it's ok.

<P>We wake up to dogs barking in our face at 6AM.  Very quickly, we hunt for the others.  Two of them stayed up most of the night, trying to run away from the mosquitoes; they found two others at 4AM and lighted up a fire to stay warm.  Two of the youngest ones were haggled by some security guy and then the guy was so moved that he got them a bed and three regular (regular, as is in the kind without any holes :)) blankets!  For the next couple of hours, all of us share one story after another, all with one conclusion -- "We will never forget this night for the rest of our lives!"

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<P>Along the way, we meet a village saint who only meets couple people once a month.  He's been in the same room for the last fifty years, he lives only on liquids, and shuns publicity altogether.  His message to us -- don't forget that when you think you are helping others, you are actually only helping yourself.  Especially for these kids, it hits home like a ton of bricks.  The mysterious saint (who made me promise that I won't mention his name anywhere) was a blessing in many subtle ways that only the invisible eye can perceive.

<P>By evening, our truck is reloaded.  It will take a day and a half for the ammunition to reach its destination.  And rest will be history. :)

<P>The next morning, I meet RG.  He's disappointed he didn't get to go on the bus due to an out-of-town workshop he was attending.  In response to his frustration, he gave away his shoes to a young, needy fruit seller as he was walking down the street.

<P>Compassion gang, in full effect.  Rock on.]]>
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