Nipun, that day at meditation I 'passed' because I really didn't know what to say to you and Guri. What could I say that others hadn't already said. And I was just sitting absorbing all the blessings of that evening. I planned to write to you and share some thoughts. But I couldn't find the words either. Yet I knew they would come and that I should be patient. And after reading this post and the one called 'Walls must come down' what can I say but: "You've done it again, Nipun!!" Touched me at my weakest spot, and as Rumi put it (via Pavi) 'broke the glass cover on my heart' yet again. And as I wipe the water from my eyes I simply want to say:

May your journey always remind you of how you felt when you saw that rainbow that day in Berkeley. May your hopes, aspirations, doubts, fears, desires, needs, wants, wishes, joys, love, sorrows, tears and laughter all blossom and ripen like the majesty of that multi-hued arc in the sky. And once they do, in all their splendour, let them gently, slowly, imperceptibly merge back into the clear blue from which they emerged. Leaving you with nothing, and everything.

yours, in breaking down all our walls, khushru

ps: I wrote this for you with both your posts in mind:

V.I.B.G.Y.O.R.

Bang!! Bruised and shaken I lift myself up
And realise I had just walked into a wall.

I wasn't seeing well enough, I suppose,
Or I would have seen it.

So I take a minute to look around
And notice it is surrounding me.

What? How? Really? NOOOOO!!!
How could it be? Impossible, I thought.

There must be a way out
But I don't see any; until I look up.

Above me I saw sky, not blue,
But eminating colours of every hue.

Really!!! Wow!! Amazing!
But am trapped, with wall all pervading.

I scan the surface for a foothold
But find none except one.

One foot's on and quickly off
For it's shaky at best.

So I get down and look.
Closely.

And there I see what pleases me.
A Crack!!

"The brick is loose!!" I shout,
And try hastily to pull it out.

I pull and it's off surprisingly
easy.

And on it is etched in stark relief
"Peace".

Stunned, I drop to my knees to look again
When out the corner of my eye

I see a beautiful light.
Violet.

Scouring for another crack
My hand quickly finds a gap.

Another brick is loose
And this one says "Fear"

I turn my face and catch the light.
Indigo.

Heart racing like a rocket
I drop the brick entranced.

A second ago it was Violet
And now it's Indigo.

With footholds, not one but two,
I reach higher for another.

And out pops a third brick.
This one's called "Hope".

I can scarcely wait to see the light
Which to my delight is crystal Blue.

My mind stretching more than my body
I reach once more.

Two bricks oblige me with their message,
One says 'Joy' and one 'Sorrow'.

And the light? It was Green through one
And the other Yellow.

Up above the ground below
I stab once more for grip or hold.

This brick was smiling, unconcerned that
It said "Doubt".

I smiled back, bathing in the
Orange glow.

I knew there was one more
And sure enough there was.

Heart pounding like a flapping dove
I knew this one would say "Love".

And from behind it came this burning
Red.

I lost my foothold momentarily
And came down crashing.

Around me lay the unbound bricks,
My life in words before me.

Peace. Fear. Hope. Joy.
Sorrow. Doubt. Love.

And up above were seven rays
Of colour so special, I couldn't help but gaze.

And then I heard a rumble,
That quickly changed to tumble.

Covering my face I realised
The wall was crumbling all around me.

But it was not the sound
But really the light.

I was so unprepared
For the sight.

And I just sank back, really low,
For I was in the middle of a rainbow.